did you ever truly believe?

[eseernosam]

I don't feel a sense of duality like I used to.

I know exactly what you mean Voltair. I used to believe. I always had such a hard time because I loved science and math. I had to compartmentalize the various aspects of my life and thoughts. In the church, they taught you were only truly able to be yourself "in christ." (whatever the fuck that means) Now I know the opposite to be true.

I don't have anything holding me back. I can be myself completely. I can ponder things I would avoid as a christian. Most of all, I don't have to be two people, I can be one free individual.