did you ever truly believe?

[thesummerqueen]

I kinda figured out there was no one listening at 10, but everyone made such a big deal about god and I had no concept of what an atheist was, so I maintained to the rest of the world that my beliefs were more like Spinoza - something of pantheism, I guess. I couldn't let go of science. I was always a pretty skeptical little wench. I didn't really let down my hair, so to speak, until I met two actual atheists (and through one of them, Shell, and thus this forum) and then it was like someone loosened a tie from around my neck. No more pretending.