(March 4, 2012 at 1:04 am)Bgood Wrote: I don't really think of myself as an insecure person, but perhaps I am. I worry about the same B.S. all the time and it doesn't get me anywhere. It is like banging my head off the wall and drawing blood and hating myself for it. I wish I had a million dollars. That would make me a complete delusional egomaniac. I really just want to live life to the fullest and manifest joy and love in others somehow. Meditation mellows me out man. It is a good emotional and mental equalizing practice. It just takes alot more time and patience than I want it to. I am very impulsive and cynical. I need the Buddha doctor to fix my fucked up brain. A few drugs help along the way too. I really love nature more than anything. Ever been to Arizona's Grand Canyon? Looks just like the postcard, but you are in it...surreal.
I have. There is another little canyon nearby you might want to check out. The Paria empties into the Colorado at Lee's Ferry. You have to get someone to drive you more than a hundred miles from there way around up to the north into polygamist mormon country in Southern Utah to start the hike. From there it is 30 to 40 miles by foot, mostly walking in along that river through some very narrow canyon country back to Lee's Ferry. No place to be if a storm is brewing. During monsoon season you could be scoured out of there at high speed. But it is flat out beautiful in a whole other way from the Grand Canyon.
