Zentor, it is very possible that you were dealing with laten mental health issues, and your deconversion is bringing them out. I, however, am unqualified to make such a diagnosis.
If you truly are as bad as you say, you need to seek professional help just as the others have said.
If you truly are as bad as you say, you need to seek professional help just as the others have said.
Even if the open windows of science at first make us shiver after the cozy indoor warmth of traditional humanizing myths, in the end the fresh air brings vigor, and the great spaces have a splendor of their own - Bertrand Russell