Is That the Right Word?

[Cinjin]

In your shoes I think I would of said that "I am open to the concept that a sentient catalyst unrelated to our theology created all of this."
Only problem is that I don't know if you consider it simply one of many theories or a reality which you base your thinking and actions on.
The difference is that if you consider it a theory that you'd like to be true then that would make you indistingishable from an optimistic atheist.
If you consider it a reality but have not a shred of evidence to back up that assertion then unfortunately belief does undeniably come into it.
Just sayin'.

Fair enough.

To answer your question -

I have in the past and probably will in the future admit to believing in god (see MY definition of god), despite the fact that it makes me cringe due to my on views on the loathsomeness of religion. The issue of a god's existence and all things of a spiritual nature are complex in my own head. They have evolved over three decades to become what they are today. To unmake that would be fantastic, but we are all products of our childhood. Anyone who has spent any time reading my posts knows that I don't try to sell deities, my own or any other. Like any other blithering idiot, I have no proof, but unlike the other blithering idiots - I don't care. I just don't want to be saddled with the word "believe" ... despite the fact that it may just be my only option.