I don't think going to a professional is going to do any good.
The thing is that because of my childhood indoctrination the fear of hell is still somewhere inside my hippocampus.
So I must overcome the fear and plunge into nonthiness. It's like I'm sure there is nothing but the fear is still somewhere inside my brain.
Not to mention survival instinct.
I have very good reasons to die and not to stick around but I won't mention them here.
The thing is that because of my childhood indoctrination the fear of hell is still somewhere inside my hippocampus.
So I must overcome the fear and plunge into nonthiness. It's like I'm sure there is nothing but the fear is still somewhere inside my brain.
Not to mention survival instinct.
I have very good reasons to die and not to stick around but I won't mention them here.