I forgot to mention they don't drink (they are tea-totallers)
Fuck, they're even in Washington state, I could get legal weed, but that's just not going to happen.
I hate going into a situation that I know full well is going to trigger me to feel like I'm a helpless 4 year old. Lots of repeating mantras of, "I'm not a little kid anymore. I can remove myself from the situation if I need to. I can distract myself if necessary. She's not aware of how her actions/body language/words effect me." I will be packing my Xanax. I guess it's just hold on to yourself and just let go. Anxiety is a living hell.

I hate going into a situation that I know full well is going to trigger me to feel like I'm a helpless 4 year old. Lots of repeating mantras of, "I'm not a little kid anymore. I can remove myself from the situation if I need to. I can distract myself if necessary. She's not aware of how her actions/body language/words effect me." I will be packing my Xanax. I guess it's just hold on to yourself and just let go. Anxiety is a living hell.