(January 29, 2013 at 10:41 pm)Stimbo Wrote:(January 29, 2013 at 8:28 pm)Insanity x Wrote: Everything feels much worse when you haven't slept well. But I agree with the others. Pretending to be somebody else almost always ends badly. Your better off being you and finding somebody you actually want to be around.
Sorry, just wanted to comment on this before my brain fogs up completely. There's no way of saying this without coming across as pathetically self-pitying and I honestly do take the point; however, I actually have found someone I want to be around. The only thing is, she doesn't want to be around me in the same way I want to be around her, especially since I told her just what my feelings are for her. Up to then she hadn't known that I do have feelings for her, and I didn't want to upset anything by opening up to her. The funny thing is, she's done exactly that same thing with someone else, another person that she didn't want to upset things with by revealing her feelings. Like me, she only wants a more open friendship but with this person.
The result of all this is that she now has got precisely what I hoped to achieve, while by doing almost the exact same thing I'm essentially a creepy stalker who's endangered the trust we had. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy for her; she's not had the best of deals this past few years herself. The only glimmer of hope in this for me is that she doesn't think it will last more than a couple of months, though the chances of me being considered after that time, or even before, are not very good. And I don't blame her.
And on that note, I really need to be unconscious for several hours.
If she didn't feel the same way about you, then what's the problem? Surely, you don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you just as much.
Also, the friend-zone exists and every nice guy gets sucked into it. Girls don't like nice guys. Nobody likes nice guys - not even nice guys.
