If you really stop and think about it, god has but one purpose: To relieve us of the responsibility of our actions.
Without god, we have only ourselves to hold accountable for our actions. With god, he has placed the responsibility for our actions on himself (jesus) by proxy.
This is probably my fundamental problem with god and religion. If you look at our world today, you can take virtually any problem that exists and break it down to a basic lack of personal responsibility. We live in a world where everything is somebody else's fault. If people would simply be ACCOUNTABLE for their actions, our world would be much different.
So, to answer your question, no it is not strange that you want god to be real. It is human nature to not want to be responsible for our actions. Disbelief in god, by its very definition, places responsibility for our actions directly on our own shoulders.
The thought that we do "bad" things of our own accord is not a particularly comforting idea.
Without god, we have only ourselves to hold accountable for our actions. With god, he has placed the responsibility for our actions on himself (jesus) by proxy.
This is probably my fundamental problem with god and religion. If you look at our world today, you can take virtually any problem that exists and break it down to a basic lack of personal responsibility. We live in a world where everything is somebody else's fault. If people would simply be ACCOUNTABLE for their actions, our world would be much different.
So, to answer your question, no it is not strange that you want god to be real. It is human nature to not want to be responsible for our actions. Disbelief in god, by its very definition, places responsibility for our actions directly on our own shoulders.
The thought that we do "bad" things of our own accord is not a particularly comforting idea.
"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe." -Einstein
