Prove Christianity, not Theism in General

[FallentoReason]

...atheism is only a position about the existence of god, not the refusal to worship him...

The evidence proves otherwise, especially in your case. There's a little bit of both. You hear it all the time, "Even if you had evidence for your f*cking genecidal c*nt god, I still wouldn't worship the a**hole." You can pretend that you're just a level headed and fair minded judge, but in the end its just posturing. You don't want there to be a god. At least Thomas Nagel was honest when he said,

I want atheism to be true and am made uneasy by the fact that some of the most intelligent and well-informed people I know are religious believers. It isn’t just that I don’t believe in God and, naturally, hope that I’m right in my belief. It’s that I hope there is no God! I don’t want there to be a God; I don’t want the universe to be like that.

I propose that we lose our beliefs on unproven and contradictory traditions and we also learn to embrace the truths of nature in order to come to the realisation that there could possibly be a Creator of some sort.

Deism. The best of both worlds!