(February 18, 2013 at 5:53 am)pop_punks_not_dead Wrote: I know this sounds dumb,I am an atheist, but part of me still wants to have some form of belief, that there is a God out there and there is more to existence than this life I have been dumped with.
But then I see what religion has done to the world , it has caused wars, suffering repressed people like me so I can't bring myself to accepting there is a god when I see the state the world is in.
What kind of God would allow the boxing day tsunami to happen? To allow HIV to become a pandemic? To let little kids be born in dire poverty?
These are the most basic questions we atheists find ourselves asking, and when the vast empty void of silence is all that answers us we find ourselves asking more and more questions. You're in a transitional phase of atheism. It's the darkest point, too, as I recall, hell I only just got out of it a couple years ago. And I still actually am hovering at the edge of it. The longing for there to be something more, for eternity, for an endless life, for a loving father-figure waiting to embrace us after our deaths and to walk us into a realm of pure unadulterated unimaginable happiness and contentedness is a strong one, and its allure and its reasons are obvious. It's the last great fairy tale of our lives. The last bit of fantastic wonder, before we must open our eyes to the howling, dark chaos of the universe and accept reality for what it is. But once you stare death in the face for a while, he stops being so scary. And then he stops being a concern, and eventually you just come to accept his presence and learn to live your life so as to appreciate what you have before death has to take you away.
It's a painful experience, but in the end, rewarding and liberating for those who find the ability to overcome their terror of, and learn to accept and even enjoy, the unknown.
