Is it strange that I want there to be a God ?

[junkyardboy]

it is appointed for man once to die, and then the judgment.
judgment for all awaits.

So I guess you're done arguing then? You've just given up?

Let me ask you this: what happens to the murderer or the rapist who repents and gets saved?

And in the reverse, what happens to the kind hearted, charity minded atheist who doesn't?

Godly sorrow leads to repentance
does the murder/rapist have Godly sorrow?
thats between the sinner and God.