RE: FInally stopped lying to myself, now a little lost.
June 28, 2013 at 5:21 pm
(This post was last modified: June 28, 2013 at 5:23 pm by orogenicman.)
(June 27, 2013 at 7:41 pm)hookakat1 Wrote: Just looking for a place to kind of hash out all my feelings about coming to the conclusion that all I've been telling myself about god, spirituality, connection, etc were just lies to make myself feel better about the world around me. Now I'm feeling a bit lost and empty.
About a year and a half ago I had a cardiac arrest and was dead for a few minutes before I was revived and was then placed in a medically induced coma for a week. I now have a pacemaker-defibrillator in my chest to help with all that.
As I was recovering from that I became really connected to god. I had been making what I thought was that connection even before then as my wife and I were battling some other first world problems so surviving the heart incident and all made me really grateful. This lead me to think more about the concept of god and why that concept is so relevant and it felt very much like Dorothy pulling the curtain on The Wizard. Nothing magical or special back there. Nothing to see there at all really.
I'm not fooling myself anymore but I do feel like I've lost a family member or loved one. I feel like a safety net I had always counted on being there was never there in the first place.
And that's me and where I am right now. Eyes open to the truth but living in a world that seems less magical to me. It's a bummer.
The most important thing to remember is that you are not alone. The second most important thing to remember is to not prop yourself up with some other delusion. Find some things about your life that are positive and concentrate on those. We are always happiest when we are doing the things we enjoy most with the people we care about the most.
(June 28, 2013 at 5:21 pm)orogenicman Wrote:(June 27, 2013 at 7:41 pm)hookakat1 Wrote: Just looking for a place to kind of hash out all my feelings about coming to the conclusion that all I've been telling myself about god, spirituality, connection, etc were just lies to make myself feel better about the world around me. Now I'm feeling a bit lost and empty.
About a year and a half ago I had a cardiac arrest and was dead for a few minutes before I was revived and was then placed in a medically induced coma for a week. I now have a pacemaker-defibrillator in my chest to help with all that.
As I was recovering from that I became really connected to god. I had been making what I thought was that connection even before then as my wife and I were battling some other first world problems so surviving the heart incident and all made me really grateful. This lead me to think more about the concept of god and why that concept is so relevant and it felt very much like Dorothy pulling the curtain on The Wizard. Nothing magical or special back there. Nothing to see there at all really.
I'm not fooling myself anymore but I do feel like I've lost a family member or loved one. I feel like a safety net I had always counted on being there was never there in the first place.
And that's me and where I am right now. Eyes open to the truth but living in a world that seems less magical to me. It's a bummer.
The most important thing to remember is that you are not alone. The second most important thing to remember is to not prop yourself up with some other delusion. Find some things about your life that are positive and concentrate on those. We are always happiest when we are doing the things we enjoy most with the people we care about the most.
And if none of that works, listen to this guy:
'The difference between a Miracle and a Fact is exactly the difference between a mermaid and seal. It could not be expressed better.'
-- Samuel "Mark Twain" Clemens
"I think that in the discussion of natural problems we ought to begin not with the scriptures, but with experiments, demonstrations, and observations".
- Galileo Galilei (1564-1642)
"In short, Meyer has shown that his first disastrous book was not a fluke: he is capable of going into any field in which he has no training or research experience and botching it just as badly as he did molecular biology. As I've written before, if you are a complete amateur and don't understand a subject, don't demonstrate the Dunning-Kruger effect by writing a book about it and proving your ignorance to everyone else! "
- Dr. Donald Prothero
-- Samuel "Mark Twain" Clemens
"I think that in the discussion of natural problems we ought to begin not with the scriptures, but with experiments, demonstrations, and observations".
- Galileo Galilei (1564-1642)
"In short, Meyer has shown that his first disastrous book was not a fluke: he is capable of going into any field in which he has no training or research experience and botching it just as badly as he did molecular biology. As I've written before, if you are a complete amateur and don't understand a subject, don't demonstrate the Dunning-Kruger effect by writing a book about it and proving your ignorance to everyone else! "
- Dr. Donald Prothero
