(July 2, 2013 at 4:30 pm)The Germans are coming Wrote: And now with her getting older and older and devolving into a less and less reasonable state I kind of watch this situation and really dont know what to think. I feel a certain aura arround her within my family, a kind of very present yet hiden attitude of "she gets what she deserves".
I am just there as a bystander, not wanting to be involved in a mess I didn`t create, but at the same time feeling weird for not wanting to be engaged with what is supposed to be my family.
I somehow felt like writing this when I came home.
Germans: My thoughts go with you in this trying moment. It is difficult to watch family members waste away, yet watching their mental capacity wane must be brutally devastating. I sense a bittersweet tone in your words and just wanted to say that I hope your needs are met. Sometimes watching the way a family act is horrifying, but I respect you for not joining them when they say she deserves what she gets. I have never ascribed to that philosophy.
Best wishes.
