(August 26, 2013 at 5:18 am)Ivy Wrote: I got pregnant before marriage. Yeah it was stupid, let's skip that part lol
So, anyway. They had me stand in front of the church (500 people staring) and ask for forgiveness to them. My mom, dad, and brother stood next to me as I asked for forgiveness. Back then, I felt that was amazing. Time passed by and I began to resent that. They should have stopped me. Now I forgive them, because they were ignorant as much as I was. I'm glad we all left the church and that at least my brother and I are atheists.
Thank you for sharing that. Horrible memories of a religious past can be daunting.
At least for me.
I had a similar experience. It was during my youth when I had just come out of the closet to a few people. I was also a fundamentalist Christian at the time, though I attempted to find a balance between faith and being gay. Even my best friend at the time informed me that there was nothing wrong with being gay. That changed quickly. Later in life, she would deny ever having been my friend.
I digress, however. One night during a service the pastor began speaking of someone in the congregation who needed help. He began to mention homosexuality, and I instinctively knew it was me. The only way he could know was if my best friend had informed him, though he claimed he had received a message from god. I looked over at her, and i knew right away.
The pastor called me to the front and I stupidly allowed everyone to pray for me, in the hopes of removing the demon of homosexuality from me. If I could go back in time, oh the way things would have been different.
"Never trust a fox. Looks like a dog, behaves like a cat."
~ Erin Hunter
~ Erin Hunter