Wow, I didn't think it was possible for Taint of Christ to come across as more of an asshole, but mission accomplished. Seriously, you should just shut the fuck up, because nothing pisses me off more than religious stupidity peddled as a psychiatric cure. Take your bullshit elsewhere. I have zero tolerance for it in this discussion.
To the OP, there is no higher meaning to your life, but that doesn't preclude you from making some of your own. I've been an atheist most of my life and suffered from clinical depression for almost just as long. I think the thing you need to ask yourself is why you need your life to have some outside meaning. What is it that makes you desire an objective meaning? Once you can answer that question, you can truly get to the root of the problem and try to understand what it is you need to find your place in this world. You can discover that the only thing stopping your life from having meaning is your inability to bestow meaning upon it and that fulfilment lies in understanding who you are and what kind of difference you desire to make in the world.
I suggest working mainly on fixing your depression and then trying to discover meaning. Figuring out what you need to be content in this world is much easier once you learn to manage your depression, which takes a lot of time, effort, and self-reflection. There are no easy answers, but until you learn how to live your life in a way that minimizes the effect your depression has, no answers will be forthcoming. Focus on treatment and forget about meaning for the time being. Once you learrn how to manage your depression, you can then try to discern what it is that you need to be truly fulfilled.
To the OP, there is no higher meaning to your life, but that doesn't preclude you from making some of your own. I've been an atheist most of my life and suffered from clinical depression for almost just as long. I think the thing you need to ask yourself is why you need your life to have some outside meaning. What is it that makes you desire an objective meaning? Once you can answer that question, you can truly get to the root of the problem and try to understand what it is you need to find your place in this world. You can discover that the only thing stopping your life from having meaning is your inability to bestow meaning upon it and that fulfilment lies in understanding who you are and what kind of difference you desire to make in the world.
I suggest working mainly on fixing your depression and then trying to discover meaning. Figuring out what you need to be content in this world is much easier once you learn to manage your depression, which takes a lot of time, effort, and self-reflection. There are no easy answers, but until you learn how to live your life in a way that minimizes the effect your depression has, no answers will be forthcoming. Focus on treatment and forget about meaning for the time being. Once you learrn how to manage your depression, you can then try to discern what it is that you need to be truly fulfilled.
Even if the open windows of science at first make us shiver after the cozy indoor warmth of traditional humanizing myths, in the end the fresh air brings vigor, and the great spaces have a splendor of their own - Bertrand Russell
