(November 5, 2013 at 10:49 pm)leodeo Wrote: i don't think i will get a girlfriend because even before the military i always been super awkard with girls, i have a very high strung/hyperactive personality which people love me cuz im funny, but girls usually want a guy who is calm and collected.Leo, this is a sad story. But remember, you are only 24, and everything is still possible for you. Keep working with your therapist, thinking things through, and being honest. You can be happy now if you stop being so hard on yourself. If you served in the military, you have helped everyone here, and you should be proud of that.
and now the main problem i am dealing with, is my emotional control/depression problems. I been trying to finish college degree in computers, I am able to function mentally as far as the course work goes, but I have a hard time regulating my emotions now, I get angry, and the depression and wanting to die and start screaming and crying badly. I been in therapy a lot, and made some progress, but still not enough to hold out for a whole semester in college, I been enrolling every spring for the last few years, and having drop out half way through.
ANd now I'm getting older, most people graduate college around age 22, and I feel like the time is passing me by, and I just feel like theres nothing left in this life for me, I just wanna die and go to heaven and be happy.
Remember-college work can be difficult, and it's OK to be frustrated with it. And women can be difficult (I know, because I am one), and it's OK to worry about that. You're a very young man, and you'll figure it out. Deep breaths, man.
