(January 29, 2014 at 11:21 pm)kılıç_mehmet Wrote: Money, women, wine...
Such things are nothing but dust, my friend. They come and go. They weigh heavily upon your heart even if you don't have them, they weigh even more heavily when you do.
Being so focused on such meek pleasures is enough to drive any man insane. Best you train your body, mind and soul to be happy without depending on them. As the Buddha says, craving leads to suffering.
There is truth in those words. Emptiness is form, and form is emptiness. You have an emptiness in your heart, which shapes your life. Your life on the other hand, has shaped this emptiness.
Yes, well; if you'll indulge me, the buddha was a git. As self-indulgent as this sounds, I'm the sort of person who can only be complete, or even alive in a functioning sense, in the happiness of another. Sam and I had this thing in which we would get really close, enough that we could see ourselves reflected in the other's eyes. It was as if I was inside her mind looking out through her beautiful eyes. The nearest I've been able to hope for lately is a perfunctory hug with "a friend" in which she turns her head away so as not to be involved more than necessary. It's the stale bread and jam to the twelve-course banquet of yesteryear.
(January 29, 2014 at 2:46 am)Rayaan Wrote: Just one kiss or one cuddle from a girl will make you feel connected to the human race again? Otherwise you feel disconnected? ... Come on Stimbo.
Yes.
It's hard to explain what it's like to have to go through my days on the outside, seeing everyone else (in my perception, which of course is wrong etc) paired up and being together, just as Sam and I would. Seven billion people in the world, three and a half billion couples - potential and actual - and then there's me. Accurate or not, true or otherwise, that's how it feels to me. Amd I've had it. For nearly four years (3pm Sunday May 16 2010) I've been adrift. Michelle is right; Sam is better off dead than with me and I'm gonna die alone.
Kaye, I accept your offer. Or is it a chellenge? Either way, I'm yours.
At the age of five, Skagra decided emphatically that God did not exist. This revelation tends to make most people in the universe who have it react in one of two ways - with relief or with despair. Only Skagra responded to it by thinking, 'Wait a second. That means there's a situation vacant.'
