Fear of hell

[Ryantology]

Well, what specifically is the fear?

That I might go there because I've said in my past I though God was evil.

The fact that you're afraid of God's evil is evidence that you were right about it.

But, you have to ask yourself why God's punishments and rewards are designed to happen where no one else can ever verify that they actually happen, and then ask yourself if that seems more than a little fishy. Once you accept the obvious answer, you'll have nothing more to fear.