@JesusLover1
I don't pretend to know your situation at all, but it seriously strikes me from what you've posted here that your parents are fostering and encouraging your OCD rather than helping to treat it. Regardless of what you believe about the afterlife, if your child suffers from OCD, you don't plant seeds of fear like this.
I have changed my opinion about you several times the more you have posted. I don't think you're stupid. I actually think you are probably very smart, and that is why your parents don't want you to read the Bible. It sounds very much like your parents fear you asking questions of them, so they have created an environment where you never do.
Your parents are not infallible. They may have your best interests in mind, but sometimes they are wrong. I would suggest you request that they allow you to talk to a mental health professional who is properly licensed (read: not a church counselor) and has experience treating OCD. You could greatly improve your functionality and quality of life.
I don't pretend to know your situation at all, but it seriously strikes me from what you've posted here that your parents are fostering and encouraging your OCD rather than helping to treat it. Regardless of what you believe about the afterlife, if your child suffers from OCD, you don't plant seeds of fear like this.
I have changed my opinion about you several times the more you have posted. I don't think you're stupid. I actually think you are probably very smart, and that is why your parents don't want you to read the Bible. It sounds very much like your parents fear you asking questions of them, so they have created an environment where you never do.
Your parents are not infallible. They may have your best interests in mind, but sometimes they are wrong. I would suggest you request that they allow you to talk to a mental health professional who is properly licensed (read: not a church counselor) and has experience treating OCD. You could greatly improve your functionality and quality of life.
