Looking through this thread, I'm reminded of how I was indoctrinated as a kid by my family of origin. I don't blame them for anything, lol. They were brainwashed by their families of origin, too. But, it's interesting, how I view the term 'atheist.' I feel safe to admit this here to all of you, but perhaps part of indoctrination, is that fear component. I feared leaving Christianity. And when I finally did...it wasn't a eureka kind of moment. It was a gradual process, over time.
But, having said all that...why don't I call myself an atheist? I guess I'm afraid to.
Ugh. Maybe this is part of the process. Because deep down, I feel more like myself than I ever have, leaving faith. I feel a sense of peace living life without faith, now. And yet...I feel guilty over leaving it. And that guilt isn't coming from me, it's coming from the fear that was imposed upon me through religion.
I shouldn't feel guilty, wanting to just follow my heart.
Ohhhh my...sound the violins. I didn't mean to go off on a tangent, but thank you for listening.
But, having said all that...why don't I call myself an atheist? I guess I'm afraid to.
Ugh. Maybe this is part of the process. Because deep down, I feel more like myself than I ever have, leaving faith. I feel a sense of peace living life without faith, now. And yet...I feel guilty over leaving it. And that guilt isn't coming from me, it's coming from the fear that was imposed upon me through religion.
I shouldn't feel guilty, wanting to just follow my heart.
Ohhhh my...sound the violins. I didn't mean to go off on a tangent, but thank you for listening.
