RE: What is your preferance
March 23, 2014 at 4:38 am
(This post was last modified: March 23, 2014 at 4:39 am by My imaginary friend is GOD.)
(March 23, 2014 at 4:28 am)Thunder Cunt Wrote: Yeah! I worshiped pills for a while but now I know it is fleeting and deceptive and most of the shit that haunts me the most was shit I did when high.When I first DID have access to pills that did anything that I liked to me, I self-medicated. This was my Freshman year in college, and I took a combination of a muscle relaxer and some damn thing that made me feel like I was floating, I can't remember what it was now. It was AWESOME.
It can be great though to be able to pop a pill to make all anxiety go away. If you felt nervous and Anxious I know the pill and the milligram that will make your anxiety go away completely. It might take 20 minutes to kick in but will do a thorough job.
It's very dangerous when you have no anxiety and fear. Judgement gets extremely clouded. It would be at those moments that I might actually act out on what was always just fantasy.
I have to stay away from drugs and alcohol. I don't know how long b4 I go back to drinking. Something tells me im not done yet.
U still in College?
But you know what was even more awesome? When I got on the RIGHT drugs legitimately and suddenly, for the first time, I knew what people meant when they said they were "happy."
I did not know at the time that muscle relaxers can actually alleviate anxiety, I just knew that they made ALL my muscles relax, including my brain.
Yep. At this point, I don't know when I'll ever finish. Something changed at some point right before I went to India last summer, and then everything got worse because in India I had a full-blown heat stroke, which PS, can totally KILL YOU. My academic performance hasn't been the same since. And apparently all that should be affecting me negatively right now is my depression, and I have some major news in that department, I think I might finally be turning a corner on that. The news I want to report is the post I meant to make hours ago before I got caught up in forum drama. And talking to you. I will make it in the thread whose title I am forgetting, the one that's like, "What's up wit chu?"
