RE: It's best to accept reality
March 24, 2014 at 2:27 pm
(This post was last modified: March 24, 2014 at 2:35 pm by Phatt Matt s.)
(March 24, 2014 at 1:54 pm)bluhatpill Wrote: Stop TRYING to be positive. Trying ot be positive when you aren't is just leading to more failure and more depression because you failed. That's what I hate about psychiatry..its turned into a social standard: "You need to be positive because the rest of us are not uncomfortable with how you feel. "
I say its okay for you to feel not positive. It's not hurting me I'm not upset or think less of you because I get depressed myself. so ..I let myself be depressed, I accept I'm depressed. I won't fight with it because it will win. I only win when I let go of it by accepting...that's how i feel.
If I asked what positive is anyway no one would be able to tell me and that is OLD RELIGIOUS PROGRAMMING stuck in the subconscious and reinforced with these assbags who don't know what they are doing.
Most psychatrists are emotional basket cases themselves.
Positive and negative are just bright new agey terms for good and evil.
I think when people say postive they mean be proactive.
Accept how you feel. You're depressed-- okay. Go be depressed. Go lay down on your bed, and wallow in it. Eat five carton's of ice cream, be Eeyore, have a tantrum, be depressed, be sad, think of thousand ways to end it all. Make each one more morbid and melodramic, think of all the people who'll be sorry you died, and be spiteful with it. Ha ha you should have been nicer. Watch horrible sad movies and bawl your eyes out, hate people, hate the world, be angry (not destructively but just air it out) ...but get this toxicity out of you in an imaginative (and non desstructive) way possible. Its your feelings, own them, accept them and that tension that awful will start to release.
It doesn't belong to you; its a artificial standard imposed on you that you can't live up to because...it doesn't exist. Feel all of it. Draw morbid pictures, write stories about awful depressing things. Get it out.
Tell your mind "Hey I feel this way and there's nothing you can do about it Mind. Nee neer."
If your mind starts to rationalize tell it it has dumb thoughts and you're off to be depressed again.
You will not turn into a bed of roses overnight but doing this but you will start to feel better when you stop rationalizing them because there's nothing rational about emotions. This is really accepting out emotions.We fall in love with awful people, we eat things that are bad for us because love them...we will never make our emotions rational we can only make them non toxic to where they aren't hurting us.
You used to have the comfort of religion ot comfort you but your pain got to the point where religion provided no comfort. So instead of looking for a balm, just release the poison.
When you get some of that emotional toxicity out of you by releasing it instead of smothering....you will feel better. Eventually you'll start feeling good. People who don't feel good...can't feel good about the world, about living about anything.
Feel your pain, your anxiety, your hopelessness. feel it til it hurts and KNOW that if you are feeling it its releasing. Yes it feels horrible but in doing it this way...it doesn't last very long. Its the shit we aren't aware of or feeling we got to watch out for. It doesn't last very long when you allow yourself to feel it because you're not smothering it back.
(March 23, 2014 at 2:08 pm)leodeo Wrote: thanks i always like making new friends - i'm beyond help at this point, ive spend like the last 8 years in meds and therapy and hospitalizations even, thousands in debt from medical bills and i do try to be positive but not all stories have happy endings - if mental treatment was as simple as getting meds and therapy then it wouldn't be such a booming industry.
No I don't like living at all - before I thought I could grind through this life and go to heaven but now I realize theres no heavens and this is it, so that kinda makes me more depressed but its whatever, and I'm scarfed to suicide in case i survive and get committed, i tried to buy a gun last year and almost got civil commited because we live in a small town and the lady processsing my application for firearm new about me and called my case manager and it was a mess....so just trynna coast through under the radar :S
But i made this thread not to complain and ask for help, but to show people that religion doesn't really do anything to help and its best to accept reality and try to find a way to get through life as smoothly as possible. cus i get really irritated when people beleive in god and give him so much praise when things are going good, then when bad things happen they pull out the free will card to keep god blame free :/
I actually readall that. Should have made pokcorn first:p
Dunno if it 4me or othr suicidal guy bu thanks
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