The advantages of being Atheist

[Angrboda]

OK, perhaps the viruses have corrupted certain sectors so they had to be wiped. There is definitely some stuff missing on my hard drive...

Change is always hard, even if it's a change for the better. I think you're expecting a lot to go through such a major change and hoping for it to be relatively painless. It's not likely going to be. I think you'd be a lot better off just accepting that things are going to be difficult before they get better, but not worry about it so much.