Wow, I never thought the idea would scare me so much. I didn't think the idea would make me so emotional but today it has.
I've been atheist for five months now and let's just say my previous network, church, family, friends...haven't been that cool about it. I really am building my network back up again. It's coming together quite well.
But I'm afraid to die tomorrow. I'm not afraid to die for my sake, but for the sake of my family and friends.
You see, if I die tomorrow or contract some terminal illness tomorrow all of my family and friends will interpret as a punishment from God for my atheism and my wife's agnosticism. They take the event to church, and testify that our story is a testament to our iniquity and sin. I don't want to be mad an example. And my poor wife, they would say that God is punishing her too if I would die.
It's terrible that religions work this way rather than looking to reason.
See, I've been pretty pissed, angry, and out spoken the first 4 months I came out and this only aids my enemy into thinking it is because of my atheism.
I just hope I have time to return to my normal happy, positive, welcoming self before I pass or the people around me will use me as an example.
Anyways, that's what's bothering me. Thank you all for being my support since I've joined.
I've been atheist for five months now and let's just say my previous network, church, family, friends...haven't been that cool about it. I really am building my network back up again. It's coming together quite well.
But I'm afraid to die tomorrow. I'm not afraid to die for my sake, but for the sake of my family and friends.
You see, if I die tomorrow or contract some terminal illness tomorrow all of my family and friends will interpret as a punishment from God for my atheism and my wife's agnosticism. They take the event to church, and testify that our story is a testament to our iniquity and sin. I don't want to be mad an example. And my poor wife, they would say that God is punishing her too if I would die.
It's terrible that religions work this way rather than looking to reason.
See, I've been pretty pissed, angry, and out spoken the first 4 months I came out and this only aids my enemy into thinking it is because of my atheism.
I just hope I have time to return to my normal happy, positive, welcoming self before I pass or the people around me will use me as an example.
Anyways, that's what's bothering me. Thank you all for being my support since I've joined.
"Just call me Bruce Wayne. I'd rather be Batman."
