Thee sense of purpose i felt from god was similar to the sense of purpose i felt from my mother when I was a child. My mom was the controlling center of my world. It was good to obey moms rules because it made her happy, and when she was happy with me I was happy because she mattered more than anything. This was sort of how I felt about god later, he was the center of my world. However, my mom exists, the god thing was an illusion of purpose.
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