(May 17, 2014 at 11:24 am)SteelCurtain Wrote: Potch,
It is devastatingly sad to me that you would even, for a moment, consider throwing away your happiness in a human connection because of some bronze age understanding of sexuality. Even if you continued belief in a god---one that made you the way you are, and threatens punishment for sharing love with a consenting adult---what makes this sin any worse than premarital sex or a wife giving her husband a blowjibber?
Keep reading. Keep questioning the things you 'know' to be true. If you are gay, you are setting yourself up for some emotional trauma in staying with the synagogue. It will be impossible, not to mention incredibly unhealthy, as a human being, to just be celibate. You will fail at that. You have a chance to be happy in your life, and even if you are still a believer, you will have to hide something that no one should ever be ashamed of if you are that close to the organization.
Unfortunately, SC, it's not even just celibacy. My Rabbi is putting pressure on me to marry a woman (Someone he would set me up with), with the promise that with enough behavioral modification I will "become a man" and be cured of my homosexuality.
