Scented Nectar God is not forcing me to love Him it's my choice it's what I want to do. I do go out living life in and with love and I try to live a good moral life and not because I'm commanded to I do this I do this to show others what God has done in and for my life. I try to do the things I should in thanks to God for redeeming this unworthy person. There's no way I can deny Gods love for me because His love cost Him a very high price. I know you do not understand this because you have chosen to disbelieve, that is a privilege God has given us, but your disbelief can not and will not change the fact that God is real. Your disblief does not cancel out my experiences with God. Why is it you believe God would be forcing one believe in Him, just because He gives us choices does not constitute force. Many people make wrong choices in their lives and pay a penalty for that choice and sometimes that penalty is for life and no one forced them to and they knew the consequences for their actions.
God loves those who believe and those who do not and the same goes for me, you have no choice in this matter. That puts the matter of total free will to rest.