Why knocking is so important.

[Drich]

[You have no idea what view of God I had was. When I was a Christian I tried to be open minded as I sought the truth.

What ever you believed failed did it not? Or are you saying what you believe yielded an accurate picture and solid interactive relationship with God, but dispite all of that you turned and left your beliefs anyway? If not then you had a corrupt understanding of who God is.

Now that I am an apostate I live my life basically the same as I did before except I sleep in on Sunday.

Knowing God is not about behaivor. Biblicaly Christianity centers relationship, not the way we act.

Do I still seek god? I seek the truth. If it turns out that God is true then I will accept that. I see no evidence of that at this time however.

If you seek evidence then ask Him for it. Seek it out until you find it. But first you must understand what evidence is being offered.