Feel Embarassed or regret by ones religous past?

[FlowingFlame]

Can't really claim to have a religious past. I used to pray a lot when I was a kid but there was so much coercion and fear attached to it that I can't really say it was any personal quest to find God, I just didn't want my father to beat me again. I remember most of my prayers being interrupted by obsessive thoughts about other girls anyway.

The non-personal pursuit wasn't much better, I don't think I ever really bought into the mythology. I remember being told to stop asking questions during sunday school lessons after completely derailing one by asking who Cain's wife was. I never experienced the friendly community aspects of the faith when I was a kid so the indoctrination didn't stick with me. By the time I was free of the threats and coercion I was too old for the fluffy magical aspect to seem honest or appealing. I suppose I should be grateful that I was able to start my life in the right direction rather than ending up as some deeply closeted baby farm begging the ceiling to have the "sinful thoughts" taken from me. ~shudders~