Well hello all, I've not been here long but I can see already that this will be a nice home! I'm still figuring out the lay of the land, so hang in there with me. My name is Des (Desiree) I'm 34 and a married mother of 2 young ladies. First things first, I absolutely cannot justify, to myself or anyone else, bringing up my babes with the 'word of god'. It feels insipid. I cannot abide letting them grow up to rely on faith when there's so much fact. There's so much more to that, however I have a hard time sometimes putting it in to words.
I grew up in a somewhat christian house with somewhat religious parents. By somewhat I mean when it was convenient for them haha. My dad's family is uber religious, very strong faith and they actually live by the word, which in my experience is so rare. I see so many people claim to be good loving Christians when in fact their lives do not reflect those beliefs, and really all I see is a bunch of people using god to control others. I used to be kind of jealous of people who had true and strong faith, and then I started investigating and thinking for myself and now I have pity for them.
I've devoted a nice chunk of my life toward the search...looking for god, faith, a comfortable religion, anything at all really. For some reason I could never find it. I don't know how long I will keep searching either, because honestly at this point I am far more comfortable now, it feels so freeing to be honest about that. If nothing else, I'm not sure if I'm a true atheist or rather an agnostic, because perhaps I will never give up. I don't have that answer yet, but I really enjoy the discussion here and I look forward to many of them! Thank you :-)
I grew up in a somewhat christian house with somewhat religious parents. By somewhat I mean when it was convenient for them haha. My dad's family is uber religious, very strong faith and they actually live by the word, which in my experience is so rare. I see so many people claim to be good loving Christians when in fact their lives do not reflect those beliefs, and really all I see is a bunch of people using god to control others. I used to be kind of jealous of people who had true and strong faith, and then I started investigating and thinking for myself and now I have pity for them.
I've devoted a nice chunk of my life toward the search...looking for god, faith, a comfortable religion, anything at all really. For some reason I could never find it. I don't know how long I will keep searching either, because honestly at this point I am far more comfortable now, it feels so freeing to be honest about that. If nothing else, I'm not sure if I'm a true atheist or rather an agnostic, because perhaps I will never give up. I don't have that answer yet, but I really enjoy the discussion here and I look forward to many of them! Thank you :-)
