How can you say "take responsibility for your life"?

[Losty]

Thank you. You are the first person that I can remember that has given a decent response to me on this website that I can recall. Every day I come here and post something to see if anyone actually has the decency to make a respectful response. It finally happened.

Hmm...I think generally people react negatively to this type of attitude because they don't know how to deal with it. It makes people uncomfortable. It's like when you say "hey how are you?" and the person says "terrible!" an then you're all like...uhh...because you just expect everyone to say fine.
Also, it's probably somewhat because we all have these feelings to some extent or another and we are taught that it is valued to be the type of person who hides these feelings. We are taught that always being able to maintain composure is a valuable trait. To an extent that is a good thing. For many reasons. If you let hatred and discontent be all you think about, it will completely take over your life and you won't be able to find any peace or happiness in anything. Also, because if it's all you ever talk about you eventually become a burden to other people in your life and they want to spend less time with you. Take this forum for example. If you were to have just one thread where you constantly posted about all the things and people you hate so much, and then post only non-hateful neutral and/or positive posts everywhere else I think it would be easier to deal with.
I see your posts everywhere and they are so hostile and filled with so much hatred and anger that even reading them stresses me out. I have enough stress in my own life, so sometimes when you go on a posting spree of anger and hatred I get frustrated because of it.
Hatred, anger, intolerance etc. are not inherently bad things, but too much of them can be unhealthy.
I have to be overly optimistic most of the time. The reason being that if I'm not it's really easy for me to end up right where you are. Always negative about everything. I let my negativity out differently than you so instead of being hateful and angry, I tend to be very sad when I let the negative take over my life. I can send me into an emotional break down. Sometimes when I read your posts I wonder how you can even function with all that hatred and anger.
I suggest you should try to spend time everyday, even just an hour, thinking about all the things you love and all the things that make you happy. Then challenge yourself to see those things in your daily life more often. It's okay to feel the way you feel, but it's not good for you.
Do you like running? It's a good way to ease your mind and let out stress.
Also, hugs and laughter. Especially hugs. I haz some for you now, *Losty hugs MLA*
Goodluck in whatever it is that you're hoping to achieve and I truly hope you find some happiness in your life

Back when I talked to friends...the ones I had were religious. They're still my friends and we still chat, but they all hang out without me now. Spending time with people is very difficult for me. It's not because I don't like people. I just struggle with PTSD and it's so hard to be around people. Anyways though, Sarah is Jewish, Ronya is Muslim, and Lindsey is Christian. We would hang out, watch movies, talk about life (men, children, school etc.). We all got along quite well. I don't feel like I tolerated them so much as that I enjoyed them. They're all three great people I don't really see what their religion has to do with it.

All these people saying just love whoever you want are missing the point. I want to figure out what I am specifically so I can find people who I identify with.

Hmm maybe you're just you. Most people don't fit nicely into specific sexual orientations. I call myself heteroflexible but I suppose I could pass for hetero or bisexual. You could join a69 and find people here that you identify with. Or just get to know some people and see if you can identify with them. I don't think specific labels are all that important but I guess if I had to label you I'd say homosexual, homoflexible, or bisexual.

You should join the love and hugs thread, it seems like you could use some hugs!

I'm sick of my weak, fucked up mind. What people don't get is that I'm aware of how I behave like a moron and it eats me up inside like a bacteria growing inside of me and consuming me, causing me stress. No one can help. I don't know if one day I'll ever be able to not feel this stress. Yet all these people tell me that I am being edgy, immature. They don't know what it's like.

Have you ever tried talking to a therapist? It helps me sometimes. The meds help too but that's just me. You're not as different as you think you are. Most people have fucked up shit in their heads. We just all deal with it differently. *hugs*

People have given you kind, considerate, and respectful responses. If you choose to ignore them...that's on you.