does death scare you and why?

[The Valkyrie]

I see this as two separate questions rolled into one.

The first has to do with to prospect of non-existence - this is the easier of the two. I see this as no different as the state before I was born. This I have zero fear of.

The second has to do with the process of dying. Generally speaking, I'm at peace with the prospect of going through the process of dying. I won't bore anyone by repeating the details, but I have had two illnesses where there was a very real and immediate prospect of dying. I found that I learned to get used to the idea when I had to confront it head on - giving consent to be put under general anesthesia for days when there is a very real and not at all unlikely probability of never waking up tends to do that.

I will say that the prospect of suffering for an extended period of time is distressing, but I would not say that I'm afraid of it. I don't intend to be in that position if I can help it.

I had a conversation with my doctor yesterday and he assured me that he would not let me be in that position. There would be drugs enough to prevent it.

My father and I have an agreement that we will each end the other's life if that sort of situation occurs for either of us.