ever think that all our problems exist because of other people?
January 3, 2015 at 9:57 am
(This post was last modified: January 3, 2015 at 10:13 am by Jextin.)
I guess this is kind of a part 2 of my previous thread. but basically as i look back on my life i feel like 100% of my misery came because of other people. And i know society will step in with its cliche "its on you! you have to control how you react, etc" but as i look around it just seems like BS
ie: guys who get married and wife cheats and they hit her and then spend life in jail...if they never got involved with her they could be free right now.
then societies cliche steps in "oh well if you don't take a risk whats the point of living...besides its his fault he couldn't control himself"
though as I look around even people who have "successful" marriages, doesn't seem like its worth it.
and even in general when i look back on my life, whenever I felt sad its because of something someone else said or did to me, pretty much every single time.
Im getting older now and I live on my own and I feel a lot better. I dont even play any MMO online games anymore and hardly visit forums anymore, and I notice days where I keep to myself go pretty nicely. then i hop in a game or a forum, people start being mean to me and i start feeling depressed again.
i know a lot of people will just blame me, but i feel like I am better off keeping to myself and out of trouble. and if you guys knew me like 5 years ago you'd know i was as social as a golden retriever.
as i get older life in general just seems like shit to me. people are all the same pretty much with tiny differences, everything is pretty much the same shit. food all tastes the same, all the songs are about romance, and all the movies end the same pretty much. everything is the same.
but then people "oh but thats life!!...other people can make you happy too!" but that seems like bs to me, cus overall i get more upset from others and even when im struggling and ask someone for advice they just act condescending towards me, so i feel better off alone and find happiness with myself which i feel is better than being around others. recently i pretend that a metor came and killed everyone in the world and all the people working at grocery store etc are just robots (which in a way i always felt like others are robots cus no one seems to be alive IMO besides myself (see my previous thread) ) but im just hoping one day i will die sooner than later and i can stop existing.. otherwise if there is a god and he makes me live another life idk what ill do...but then again if a god has that much control there is nothing i can do but suffer
i also remember the bob marley quote “The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.” - but i think im at a point where i feel like i am better off alone. especially with my mental illness i suffer enough by myself.
ie: guys who get married and wife cheats and they hit her and then spend life in jail...if they never got involved with her they could be free right now.
then societies cliche steps in "oh well if you don't take a risk whats the point of living...besides its his fault he couldn't control himself"
though as I look around even people who have "successful" marriages, doesn't seem like its worth it.
and even in general when i look back on my life, whenever I felt sad its because of something someone else said or did to me, pretty much every single time.
Im getting older now and I live on my own and I feel a lot better. I dont even play any MMO online games anymore and hardly visit forums anymore, and I notice days where I keep to myself go pretty nicely. then i hop in a game or a forum, people start being mean to me and i start feeling depressed again.
i know a lot of people will just blame me, but i feel like I am better off keeping to myself and out of trouble. and if you guys knew me like 5 years ago you'd know i was as social as a golden retriever.
as i get older life in general just seems like shit to me. people are all the same pretty much with tiny differences, everything is pretty much the same shit. food all tastes the same, all the songs are about romance, and all the movies end the same pretty much. everything is the same.
but then people "oh but thats life!!...other people can make you happy too!" but that seems like bs to me, cus overall i get more upset from others and even when im struggling and ask someone for advice they just act condescending towards me, so i feel better off alone and find happiness with myself which i feel is better than being around others. recently i pretend that a metor came and killed everyone in the world and all the people working at grocery store etc are just robots (which in a way i always felt like others are robots cus no one seems to be alive IMO besides myself (see my previous thread) ) but im just hoping one day i will die sooner than later and i can stop existing.. otherwise if there is a god and he makes me live another life idk what ill do...but then again if a god has that much control there is nothing i can do but suffer
i also remember the bob marley quote “The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.” - but i think im at a point where i feel like i am better off alone. especially with my mental illness i suffer enough by myself.
