Insult yourself!

[Violet]

You're some kind of a brilliant person, Alice. I feel awful for getting any joy from that post, but damn it I can relate, and I admire that amount of creative honesty. I'm too much of a butthole for that level of honesty. There. That was my go at it.

Killing people was videogames, right?....right?

I'm glad that you were able to derive any joy from it... writing it was... 'fun'... I think? I can do that now, because I don't have to spend every day hearing that... I only hope I do it justice.

Honesty's a hard thing to start trying for... when your life is bullshit manipulation based on 'close enough' lies: one might see only the pain that the faults in their juggling ability cause... they drop a ball, and their world falls. My world's fallen, my friends gone, my head empty of even my splits... it's lonely, but from that honesty comes a new world, with new friends... and hopefully no need for splits ever again.

You would probably have noticed if I'd actually killed some couple of million (i wasn't exactly... counting...) nonhuman people with thought alone. It'd kind of have been a big thing. Infact, they'd intended to have our enslavement broadcast round the world with the kind of technology that only exists in a person's head.

So... it may as well have been in a game. It stopped me from going into a 'spiral', but it didn't exactly leave me happy with myself. Accepting things like that as a part of me is considerably harder than my persona might make it seem.

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I suck.

You're the best sucker~