It's not easy - at least, not at first. I deconverted nearly 10 years ago, and the first few months were pretty tough.
One thing that helps is to find new friends who are also agnostic/atheist. I found meetup.com to be a good resource, just type in Secular or Skeptic as a search term and see who's in your area.
Another thing is to be aware that you can still be a singer/songwriter (I'm a musician as well) even if it's not in CCM. In fact, getting out of the Christian Ghetto is healthy for creativity.
Over time, it gets better. In fact, I am now more at peace with myself and with life in general than I ever was as a Christian. Reality is often the Road Less Traveled, but it's the only place to be, imo.
Oh, and if your depression persists, consider seeing a psychopharmacologist. Meds really can be helpful for some folks.
One thing that helps is to find new friends who are also agnostic/atheist. I found meetup.com to be a good resource, just type in Secular or Skeptic as a search term and see who's in your area.
Another thing is to be aware that you can still be a singer/songwriter (I'm a musician as well) even if it's not in CCM. In fact, getting out of the Christian Ghetto is healthy for creativity.
Over time, it gets better. In fact, I am now more at peace with myself and with life in general than I ever was as a Christian. Reality is often the Road Less Traveled, but it's the only place to be, imo.
Oh, and if your depression persists, consider seeing a psychopharmacologist. Meds really can be helpful for some folks.
