RE: A little about me...
March 21, 2015 at 1:17 pm
(This post was last modified: March 21, 2015 at 1:21 pm by Norman Humann.)
Steel, I really don't know what to say besides thank you. I've never had anyone tell me I'm normal and I think I really needed to hear it. I've heard too much to the contrary, it seems. My eyes are welling up a little.
Yes, you're right, it does mostly come from my sexuality. Until recently I couldn't even admit who I was. The situation in Poland... I don't know what it's like in big cicities. Presumably people are more open minded there. But I live in a small town and it's awful. Not that anyone knows about me, but many people make horrible comments.
I can recall an incident with my grandmother. She was driving me somewhere. It was around the time I started to notice what I was feeling and I asked her what she thinks about homosexuality. I still remember the expression on her face and tone of her voice very vividly as she said "it's against god, against nature and I condemn it". Just recently I heard from a colleague that gays shouldn't be allowed to adopt children because they have a sexual disorder, to which a girl I know responded that she saw two men kissing once and it was disgusting. Even my parents, who are fairly liberal in terms of religion, say hurtful things sometimes.
I know what they say isn't true, but it's hard to believe it isn't when that's all you hear. It's incredibly hard to stay rational when everyone around me is narrow minded. That's why I'm so glad to be here and have all of you to talk to. It keeps me going. But I'm definitely leaving my hometown, if not the country as soon as I can. There's no way I can get better around these people.
Yes, you're right, it does mostly come from my sexuality. Until recently I couldn't even admit who I was. The situation in Poland... I don't know what it's like in big cicities. Presumably people are more open minded there. But I live in a small town and it's awful. Not that anyone knows about me, but many people make horrible comments.
I can recall an incident with my grandmother. She was driving me somewhere. It was around the time I started to notice what I was feeling and I asked her what she thinks about homosexuality. I still remember the expression on her face and tone of her voice very vividly as she said "it's against god, against nature and I condemn it". Just recently I heard from a colleague that gays shouldn't be allowed to adopt children because they have a sexual disorder, to which a girl I know responded that she saw two men kissing once and it was disgusting. Even my parents, who are fairly liberal in terms of religion, say hurtful things sometimes.
I know what they say isn't true, but it's hard to believe it isn't when that's all you hear. It's incredibly hard to stay rational when everyone around me is narrow minded. That's why I'm so glad to be here and have all of you to talk to. It keeps me going. But I'm definitely leaving my hometown, if not the country as soon as I can. There's no way I can get better around these people.
