Bad bad dream during a nap this morning. Dreamt that I saw my oldest daughter playing outside of a group home, after not having been able to see her for a few years. I spoke to one of the staff there and told her that J was my child and asked if I could give her a hug. I went to hug her and realized that I was hugging the wrong child and that my child was talking with other residents. I totally mistook my own daughter for someone else because I hadn't seen her in such a long time. Asked the staff why she was there and was told she lived there now. Glad it was only a dream, but in reality, it is a very REAL fear because my ex would be the kind of asshole to do something like that to her. Woke up from that crying and feeling like shit. I miss my kid and I hate having upsetting dreams like that. It totally sets my day off.
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