Atheist or Agnostic?

[abaris]

I mean, are you as though autistic toward God? Even if God existed, you'd consider Him irrelevant? If the speculative question of whether God exists has been settled, say, in favor of God, would you still refuse to interact with God? That seems crazy, at least like not paying attention to other human beings.

You are a catholic, aren't you? I grew up as a catholic too and one of my first steps towards atheism - still as a child - was to think, I don't like that guy they're talking about in church and in the bible. For me god was petty, a schoolyard bully, shoving people around and killing them. And to top it off, he shoves you into the eternal oven if you don't play nice.

So I didn't want to worship a being like that and thought, well, if there's an almighty god, he's certainly nothing like in the bible. I didn't give a shit anymore and lived my life trying to be a decent person, but not because of god. For a pretty long time I have been a deist, thinking maybe there's something out there making things tick. But certainly not something looking into everyone's bedroom and counting the times you masturbate. Being a deist also didn't conflict with my education in the same way theism does, since I didn't have to believe in that preposterous claim of the earth only being a few thousand years old and mankind poofing into existence.

Yeah, I know, the Catholic church is moving away from that too, but that doesn't change the contradictions between science and dogma. So, to repeat myself, I'm agnostic because I can't rule out with absolute certainty that some force is moving the universe. But that doesn't have to be any kind of god. A few thousand years ago, people looked up at the sun and the moon and since they couldn't explain them, they called them gods. The classical god of the gaps reaction. Who knows, what we will know about the universe in another ten thousand years? If we still exist as a species, that is.