You were like a deist 6 months ago. WTF happened? Did you "reason" your way to these ideas? Did you have a mental breakdown and found this helpful in YOUR therapy? Fine, but stop pretending like we're supposed to just say, "Oh, okay, yes, I see, that makes perfect sense, thank you for that insight."
He who loves God cannot endeavour that God should love him in return - Baruch Spinoza