(April 15, 2015 at 12:28 pm)robvalue Wrote: Watch: wow, I really can't imagine how that must feel. It must be so weird! I do understand how stressful that must be though, trying to interpret random stuff as having meaning. So did you really believe you were getting messages?
Oh yeah, I thought I was getting messages all the time, but I was never certain what the messages meant, and I was never certain if the messages were truths from the Holy Spirit or tricks from Satan.
Here's a fairly typical example: I might be walking and notice a couple of twigs on the sidewalk that roughly form a cross. Then I would wonder what that meant. Was God shaking his finger at me, because I was walking to McDonald's to get a coke on a day when I was supposed to be fasting?
Of course, my Christian adventure began with psychosis, so I was getting all kinds of messages at that time. Ironically, when I started recovering from psychosis, I was afraid I had done something to upset God, because I was no longer getting as many weird experiences. So I became even more extreme in my efforts as a Christian. I prayed and knelt for hours every day. Finally I decided that Satan might be the good guy and God might be the bad guy - after all why did God want his followers to be cannibals?
You missed out on a lot of fun by never being a Christian
