Here's the thing skipper, and I hate to be the one to break it, its not about you.
"but he created ME"
"created MY surroundings"
"ME being atheist"
"ME going to hell"
God's greatest concern is His own glory and it's appropriate because of who and what He is. He's not really worried about whether or not that rains on your parade or not...
That being said, if you want to join the program then seek His face. If you draw near to Him, He will draw near to you.
"but he created ME"
"created MY surroundings"
"ME being atheist"
"ME going to hell"
God's greatest concern is His own glory and it's appropriate because of who and what He is. He's not really worried about whether or not that rains on your parade or not...
That being said, if you want to join the program then seek His face. If you draw near to Him, He will draw near to you.