Oh dear god. . .

[Aegrus]

Ok - I'm a Mom - and a grandmama - so I'll help tackle this from a mom's pov if you like? You don't know me. I don't know you so we can start fresh/from scratch. I have no forum history with you here.

What seems to be the problem? If you had to describe You as others have done so - what did they say? What's up? Do you not like yourself very much? Sometimes that really is the issue. 'Cause when people don't like themselves they cannot see others liking them either. Happens all the time. Maybe you focus on not being liked too much instead of just going ahead and jumping in conversations with other people?

And sometimes people just straight up think too much hon. Not uncommon either. Like I said - I don't know you - but maybe just cut yourself a break. Lighten up a notch. Roll with the punches. Find things about yourself that you DO like. A little positive affirmation goes a long way.... a bit of confidence. Learn to make jokes and take a joke. Humor can make life SO much easier at times.

If you're an attention whore and will DO anything for attention- like whine/moan/ complain and take things personal all the time --- you realize that wont help anything right? I'm sure you've seen people pull stuff like that on internet forums before. *shrug* Life doesn't have to be so bad - it really doesn't. Be kind and accept kindness, joke a bit and relax a Lot. Give it all a little time. And remember - not everyone fits in everywhere. This may not be your niche (?)

common........... life's not so bad. Really.

*smile*
It'll be ok.

Thank you for the offer. It's very kind of you--much kinder than I deserve. However, I don't think that anything's going to fix what fifteen years of professional treatment and medication (starting at about age 5) haven't. I think I'm just going to have to get used to being alone.