Trans-FUCKING-everything

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I saw the guy who froze his legs off on purpose so he could have a wheel chair do an interview.

I've been around many many people with all manners of problems (thank you 12 steppers and much else) and I still don't understand that.

Well, in a way... perhaps it's not as difficult for me to understand. I sometimes exhibit a more-than-inconsequential desire to hack off a birth defect or two. I also live some days wanting nothing more than to rend and stab myself to death, or rake and tear my face off. I've also found myself filled with the rather-invasive 'whim' of wanting to 'transform', either to something I call my 'Trueform' (human base, but with iridescent wings (that I can turn off), tentacles, and oh... terrifying cosmic powers)... or to what I actually am every single day in my mind (so less of a transformation, and more of a dysphoria at realizing my body and mind do not necessarily match).

So... I have multiple avenues by which I can bridge to some understanding of why someone might want to disable themselves, to 'correct' themselves (some people, for example the woman the thread is about, don't see it as so much a disability... as the world that they have wanted to live in for their entire lives finally theirs to live for the rest of their lives), modify themselves, destroy themselves, or, on a whim to 'transcend' themselves.

I'm sure it seems insane to some people. Which is good... because it is insanity for some people.