AF Biggest Loser/Fitness Challenge-May 3 to Whenever We're Not Fat Anymore

[Joods]

^What happened?

Had a scare where I thought I was having a stroke. While in the hospital, tests showed nothing except that my LDL (bad cholesterol) was way high so I was started on a statin and then taken off of it. Now I don't know what my doctor is supposed to be doing or what I'm supposed to be doing. When I get stressed out, I can literally feel my blood pressure rising. I'm not losing any of the weight I gained when I quit smoking 10 months ago. 

I'm just at a point where I'm completely frustrated with myself and my utter failure to actually accomplish anything as far as getting healthy goes. Not that I'm going back to smoking, because it's disgusting, but I'm starting to think that maybe because I smoked for so many years, that the smoke was what was keeping my health in check. You know, sorta like when you see a really old apartment complex and you can just tell there are tons of coats of paint on the walls so you joke and say that the paint is the only thing holding up the walls. 

Yeah. I'm starting to feel like that.