Fear of letting go?

[Aegon]

Why do you feel compelled to let those beliefs go? Why is it important to you?

I want to understand psychology and our minds and i can't understand how our minds fully work if i'm also not willing to let go 
also even if i end up wrong, does it matter? what matters is i remained open minded. Hopefully. 
I can't help others if i can't learn to help myself that's what motivates me i also almost died not long ago in a really stupid way, but stupid or not its made me reflect on what's important, on what's the "here and now" instead of the "What could be" i always have reflected on this but iv'e been doing it more.

I'm no psychologist but I don't think you can force a belief to go away, or force yourself into a belief you don't legitimately have. You have to organically convince yourself of something. If you still believe in the supernatural, it's because you legitimately think that it is true... even if you don't think you do. Instead of focusing on letting go of belief, maintain it while you conduct research on things that contradict those beliefs, and eventually you will naturally come to the conclusion that your prior beliefs were most likely false, which will then provide you a new set of beliefs that you have true faith in. I think researching the mind will cause the letting go, not the other way around. Or perhaps it won't, but it's nothing to feel bad about.

A near-death experience will certainly wake you up to reality, as well as the immense breadth of the world in which we live. Use that to your advantage. Memento mori, friend.