The unworthy.

[wwjs]

ETA: Oh FFS, How much I wanted to feel then sweet mistress embrace through my veins, how awesome it feel its embrace, but I turned it down, only to be accused of doing it so, for confessing that proposal

As if I didn't feel down enough, fuck! I AM SO ANGERED RIGHT NOW!

It may sound stupid, but go right now and test yourself for drugs in blood, urine, etc and show results to your wife

[LastPoet]

Feeling sorry for ourselves on the internet, are we? Join the club.

Not really, more like feeling stupid over the internets, for exposing myself to comments like that, thank you for your input. Fuck you very much!

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It may sound stupid, but go right now and test yourself for drugs in blood, urine, etc and show results to your wife

Not sounding stupid at all, but private screenings are expensive and I have 32 euros in my bank account. Funny, she didn't though of such when she was unemployed and I was employed. I am clear on all accounts, not even weed. I wonder how she would react if I required a paternity test if she got pregnant...

[wwjs]

Well, you can always tell her that if she wishes you to get tested (and pays for it) then you can go right away. Even if she says "yeah, whatever" then it may cause her to rethink that maybe you didn't take heroin.

[LastPoet]

Well, you can always tell her that if she wishes you to get tested (and pays for it) then you can go right away. Even if she says "yeah, whatever" then it may cause her to rethink that maybe you didn't take heroin.

Yes, but we are married for 5 years now, she should've know better, besides, she only knows because I told her so, I could easily occulted it from her, I just told her the dillemma I had refusing a 'score' to my great repentance. I should've keep silent, it would save alot of trouble. It is fucking hypocritical for someone that begs for my sincerity to pounce me for telling the truth, when I expected to be supported, given the hard decision to not touch the sweet embrace of the mistress.

[My imaginary friend is GOD]

Feeling sorry for ourselves on the internet, are we? Join the club.

Not really, more like feeling stupid over the internets, for exposing myself to comments like that, thank you for your input. Fuck you very much!

Okay, continue being pissy. No skin off my nose.

[LastPoet]

Okay, continue being pissy. No skin off my nose.

Okay, continue to be true to your nickname

[pocaracas]

LP, get a job:
http://www.itjobs.pt/

[My imaginary friend is GOD]

Okay, continue being pissy. No skin off my nose.

Okay, continue to be true to your nickname

My username is based on an Emily Dickinson poem.


Futile--the Winds--
To a Heart in port--
Done with the Compass--
Done with the Chart!

[Angrboda]

So, forgive me for feeling low, because its as simple as that: We are deseased with prejudice and corruption, the human race best available option is to be erradicated from this planet as the plague it is.

I'm skipping in here because I see there's stuff I might want to respond to but just don't have the energy and heart at the moment.

I do want to suggest a glass half full alternative to the glass completely empty view you have here. The psychological mechanisms which result in the behaviors which are causing you such distress and anger at the moment have another side to them. These behaviors — and the ones indicated by your story are some important behaviors — have evolved in humans to allow them to build cohesive and productive social communities. In the microcosm, it helped small bands of primates function more effectively by rewarding honesty and positive social examples, and punishing dishonesty and destructive behaviors. The example you give, is, perhaps, an example of the behaviors not hitting the mark and punishing behavior that is honest and positive, admittedly. But these behaviors exist because of the totality of their effect on the social group, and they are heuristics, which means that they're based on cognitively simple judgements, which at best only partially model reality, and which are fast, efficient, and widely applicable; the downside of any heuristic strategy is that it only "probably yields the right answer" if the environment in which it is applied is a good match for the heuristic's characteristic probability function, and thus there is a built-in percentage of error in applying a heuristic. You're experiencing the "error" part. But be aware that the non-error part of that set of human behaviors is likely why you have safety, law, modern medical conveniences, good food, art, music, literature, and all the other benefits that our social behaviors have led us as a species to develop.

There are two sides to the coin you have presented. And the side you're looking at isn't even "all bad," as the efficiency and simplicity of these cognitive behaviors means that they have broad and cheap application for our species, and that means that even the least among us can successfully use them, which is likely one of the reasons for our success as a species.


Anyway. Sorry to hear about your experience. That really sucks. If I can manage, I'll come back and comment more specifically on your OP and the discussion.

[KichigaiNeko]

Don't feel bad LP. Sorry about your experience

Would you like some wine? Espirito perhaps?