RE: What's everyone up to right now?
November 5, 2020 at 12:38 pm
(November 4, 2020 at 6:04 pm)The Valkyrie Wrote: 2020 continues to make me question my commitment to weekday sobriety, not being a drug addict, and remaining a productive member of the human species.
Join us. We got the solution in a bottle to make you forget ... just takes an ass-munch amount of it to work, though.
But seriously; I drink because of all the suckiness, and not merely because of being in a social setting - I just make sure I don't drink alone. I've promised myself to
never drink alone again, because shit hit the fan last time I did for an extended period of time.
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Also, I used to smoke 2 packs of Prince cigarettes along with about half a pack of Samson tobacco. Each. Fucking. Day. For some 5 years. I did smoke since I was 13 years old, but that was while hiding it from the grown-ups behind the school, and was uncommon. Didn't really take off until 5 years later, when I could legally buy them.
I got a
literal wake-up call when I woke up one morning around 4 am in November of 2004, while staying in my room in a campus in Denmark, where I got a tobacco cough so severe that I thought that I was gonna choke and die from asphyxiation. Instead of breathing, I spent the longest minute of my life just
coughing. That is when I thought to myself "fuck this shit" and went on a cold turkey halt on that same day. The next 3 months or so were "nice", but I did have a very strong sense and "inspiration" of not smoking for obvious reasons. I had attempted to quit before, but every time before this "nice" experience that early November morning, the craving always overcame my desire to not smoke; I must've attempted at least 10 times or so, can't really remember the exact amount. BTW, that stupid craving - albeit much weaker now - is still there, right now even, if I think about smokes like I'm doing
right now.
During these past 16 years I have smoked a total amounting to 2 packs of Prince cigs, and every time because someone offered me a cig, and I was too drunk or something to decline.
Don't start drinking (again), or do heavy drugs or any similar crap. But if you must, do it in a public place, and for Jebus' sake, not alone. Goddamn COVID-19, though.
I'm, BTW, watching this nice lock-down inspired Apocalyptica "Live concert" from 25th April 2020:
"The first principle is that you must not fool yourself — and you are the easiest person to fool." - Richard P. Feynman