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RE: How to be a strong atheist in a rather straightforward way
January 27, 2010 at 4:38 am
But we are really not.
Well most of the time we are not.
Well we can be good sometimes.
We have know to be nice to kids every once in a while.
We hardly kill anyone anymore.
I am down to off only 3 people a day.
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RE: How to be a strong atheist in a rather straightforward way
January 27, 2010 at 7:06 am
I've experienced an insanely high 'High' (yet peaceful and pleasant feeling) very much like tackattack describes it for 8 weeks while I was in hospital and I ended up getting diagnosed with the possibility of bi-polar due to the kind of psychosis I experienced. I then had a weird residue of the feelings during my recovery and I still take 800 mg of Lithium a night now. Now I feel very empty then suddenly pretty good then suddenly very empty again. Dunno if that's anything to do with the drugs or if I am just not the sort of excitable person I used to be (apart from for brief moments).
It takes a long while to come off a drug like Lithium even if it's thought to not be required anymore, I have to come off it very gradually. Unless I have a 2nd mental episode I'm not confirmed as actually having Bi-polar and it may have been a 'one off' due to a lot of stress and other factors.
One can feel the most amazing things when one is delusional... and heck, I would have believed anything back then, if someone mentioned the holy spirit, sure I'd believe it. I was super high and ultra gullible. I was high and could have easily attributed it to the Holy Spirit. I don't see how being high and attributing means fuck-all. You have to have some way of genuinely knowing it is the Holy Spirit if you are to claim it is... and I know of such way. How can you know what the 'holy spirit' feels like? And personal experience isn't remotely valid evidence for such things anyway (as I said, how can it be anyway - how can you discern what the 'Holy Spirit' feels like? That's crazy).
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RE: How to be a strong atheist in a rather straightforward way
January 27, 2010 at 7:20 am
Hey EvF, I had suffered from drug induced psychosis about 8 years ago. Through some relapsing due to repeating drug use habits, I learned to stop taking particular drugs and to monitor myself for changes that aren't rational. This can mean looking for times when I'm elated, or when I put too much energy/time into activities that aren't healthy. Yeah, I also need to keep an eye on my stressors when I feel like life's challenges are out of my control and I need to reclaim some perspective occassionally.
Not lately, but I need to remember to keep it in check. Mostly because of the way psychosis can "sneak up on you; evade the radar".
Besides this, I learn as much as I can about the illness, about myself and psychology in general. I have a huge interest in the field and would love to prove that bipolar and schizophrenia as we know them are illnesses which are completely curable.
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RE: How to be a strong atheist in a rather straightforward way
January 27, 2010 at 7:24 am
I have become a much more rational person ever since all that happened. I've learnt a lot about myself and if anything I think more good came out of it than bad (after all, it only lasted 8 weeks (of madness yeah, but then it was over)).
The problem is as of late.... things are starting to seem a lot more samey for me. I mean a lot more. Everything seems so incredibly mundane I think my frustration levels might hit the roof (the imaginary, hypothetical roof mind).
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RE: How to be a strong atheist in a rather straightforward way
January 27, 2010 at 8:36 am
Something that wasn't apparent to me throughout much of my recovery process (and which I'd like to have been) was the very basic truth that I'd changed. Even though I knew I'd grown it somehow didn't sink in that I'd grown out of who I was before hand. The trouble with this was that I could really only remember who I'd been before becoming ill. I was changing so dramatically that I couldn't go back to being an adolescent skater doin drugs all the time (mostly because I couldn't do drugs anymore - lol) but all for the better, and I'm growing to this day and will continue to grow and learn as all mature adults do.
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