I don't know if this should go under Christianity or Atheism but anyway my family always knew I had doubts but I wrote this to fully express how I felt about God and Christianity. I guess it was sort of coming out to my family. Writing was the best way I felt I could really express how I felt. There are 2 lines I took from a song. Throwing that out there before I get accused of plagiarism. The original was a little more harsh but I was trying not to offend my family.
Where is your love? All I see is your endless vengeance
On those who refuse your acceptance
Because you neglected them without attention
My resentment feeds off your lack of presence
And since you gave me a mind with intelligence
I’m going to receive an eternal sentence
Because I denied your lies and deception
Ignorance is bliss, what you don’t know can’t hurt
So you stay withdrawn from reality and stick with Christianity
Stay satisfied with the pride of Gods vanity
And block out anything that causes you to realize Gods crime on humanity
Because your reward is infinite bliss in the galaxies
I’ll accept my prize of eternal damnation and mental insanity
Because I refuse to fathom or imagine a loving God
Who allows the absolute innocent; animals and infants
To live in agony, torture, pain, and brutality
Slow, excruciating mortality
But go ahead; rape, murder, and steal just don’t commit blasphemy
Because if you don’t believe in this fallacy
If you look at it rationally and block out the fantasy
You may commit blasphemy
Treason without any possibility of amnesty
Because he is a selfish and sadistic God who if you don’t call your majesty
You’ll burn for infinity crying in agony
Isn't it you who gave me a brain and such intricate, detailed anatomy?
Than you should understand when I question our reality
You read about it online and you see it on the news
But not many witness with their own eyes the depravity
If you've seen what I've seen you too would question spirituality
The guilt and sadness from the savage actions I had to fathom
Never passing, nightmares and flashbacks you could never imagine
Animals, sinless and innocent spending a lifetime imprisoned in a cage they barely fit in
So they can be bread and sold to a new home only to be permanently chained
Until there found malnourished, beaten and frozen to the ground in the cold
No excuse can be given by God for him to have reasoning to allow
Dogs skinned alive for sheer amusement and pleasure
Where is this so called care and love of God the Bible says we can’t measure?
It’s not a miracle when you beat a disease
It’s not a miracle when two bread and receive
But when you believe you see what you want to see
If I prayed to a tree
It doesn't mean the seasons are changing cause I believed in the leaves
Faith is a way to explain what can’t be explained
But I can’t just look past the false promises and claims
Not debatable, no sufficient evidence available
Aside from a book written by some older guys
That suspiciously has the exact same story-line from books written long before
The Bible was notarized from God who only to them vocalized
Many vivid descriptions and different religions
Full of contradictions and hypocrisy
But we live in a nation that thrives off theocracy
And it just so happened it was our country that chose Christianity but not by democracy
If we were born anywhere else it’d be Allah or Buddha we followed blind fully
Overly imagined and exaggerated that reaches out to the damaged
A book that was plagiarized and recycled
God….just an addiction and disease, false hope that went viral
I can’t believe in you
Or maybe I do and don’t want too
In my eyes my reasoning is justified
I just can’t imagine or glorify a selfish
Self-righteous god who can look at what he created and be satisfied
Where one bite of an apple is sufficient reasoning for eternal suffering and damnation
I don’t understand everyone’s fixation on a man
Who gives no proof or explanation
Who will only give us salvation if we bow to his creation
And you expect me to be compliant?
When all my anger and hate stems off your silence
If the Bible is an accurate depiction of you
Than I’m already morally superior so why would I ask for your guidance?
The alternative? Torture and despair?
The devil already tried to take me to hell but I was already there
Metaphorically many of us are raised to believe 2 + 2 = 5
It’s not until we open our eyes that we realize it’s a lie
So while you cower at a distance and destroy the sinless and innocent
I’ll be waiting for you to get on your knees and ask us for forgiveness
Leave me alone and get out of my head
Because I can't move on until I admit God is dead
Where is your love? All I see is your endless vengeance
On those who refuse your acceptance
Because you neglected them without attention
My resentment feeds off your lack of presence
And since you gave me a mind with intelligence
I’m going to receive an eternal sentence
Because I denied your lies and deception
Ignorance is bliss, what you don’t know can’t hurt
So you stay withdrawn from reality and stick with Christianity
Stay satisfied with the pride of Gods vanity
And block out anything that causes you to realize Gods crime on humanity
Because your reward is infinite bliss in the galaxies
I’ll accept my prize of eternal damnation and mental insanity
Because I refuse to fathom or imagine a loving God
Who allows the absolute innocent; animals and infants
To live in agony, torture, pain, and brutality
Slow, excruciating mortality
But go ahead; rape, murder, and steal just don’t commit blasphemy
Because if you don’t believe in this fallacy
If you look at it rationally and block out the fantasy
You may commit blasphemy
Treason without any possibility of amnesty
Because he is a selfish and sadistic God who if you don’t call your majesty
You’ll burn for infinity crying in agony
Isn't it you who gave me a brain and such intricate, detailed anatomy?
Than you should understand when I question our reality
You read about it online and you see it on the news
But not many witness with their own eyes the depravity
If you've seen what I've seen you too would question spirituality
The guilt and sadness from the savage actions I had to fathom
Never passing, nightmares and flashbacks you could never imagine
Animals, sinless and innocent spending a lifetime imprisoned in a cage they barely fit in
So they can be bread and sold to a new home only to be permanently chained
Until there found malnourished, beaten and frozen to the ground in the cold
No excuse can be given by God for him to have reasoning to allow
Dogs skinned alive for sheer amusement and pleasure
Where is this so called care and love of God the Bible says we can’t measure?
It’s not a miracle when you beat a disease
It’s not a miracle when two bread and receive
But when you believe you see what you want to see
If I prayed to a tree
It doesn't mean the seasons are changing cause I believed in the leaves
Faith is a way to explain what can’t be explained
But I can’t just look past the false promises and claims
Not debatable, no sufficient evidence available
Aside from a book written by some older guys
That suspiciously has the exact same story-line from books written long before
The Bible was notarized from God who only to them vocalized
Many vivid descriptions and different religions
Full of contradictions and hypocrisy
But we live in a nation that thrives off theocracy
And it just so happened it was our country that chose Christianity but not by democracy
If we were born anywhere else it’d be Allah or Buddha we followed blind fully
Overly imagined and exaggerated that reaches out to the damaged
A book that was plagiarized and recycled
God….just an addiction and disease, false hope that went viral
I can’t believe in you
Or maybe I do and don’t want too
In my eyes my reasoning is justified
I just can’t imagine or glorify a selfish
Self-righteous god who can look at what he created and be satisfied
Where one bite of an apple is sufficient reasoning for eternal suffering and damnation
I don’t understand everyone’s fixation on a man
Who gives no proof or explanation
Who will only give us salvation if we bow to his creation
And you expect me to be compliant?
When all my anger and hate stems off your silence
If the Bible is an accurate depiction of you
Than I’m already morally superior so why would I ask for your guidance?
The alternative? Torture and despair?
The devil already tried to take me to hell but I was already there
Metaphorically many of us are raised to believe 2 + 2 = 5
It’s not until we open our eyes that we realize it’s a lie
So while you cower at a distance and destroy the sinless and innocent
I’ll be waiting for you to get on your knees and ask us for forgiveness
Leave me alone and get out of my head
Because I can't move on until I admit God is dead
